An Eventful Day (to say the least)

So my day has been pretty weird and is still going to keep being super weird. It all started this morning when I had a cup of coffee and had to take a really huge poop. The unfortunate part about this was it was at 9:40, and the plumber was coming to our house at 10. Also I should mention we just moved, and the plumber was coming to plumb our fridge so it would produce magical cold water from the door. So here I am 20 minutes before the plumber comes taking the world's biggest dump on the toilet. I actually finish at about 9:53, but I have a new problem, our bathroom does not have a fan, and the kitchen is near the bathroom, close enough that you can smell everything emanating from the bathroom. Once I realize this, I immediately begin to run around the house looking for perfume or some sort of Febreze or anything that will make the air not smell like crap. I have two things going against me, one being I don't know where any of the cleaning supplies are in the new house, and two none of the females in this house have any perfume. I end up finding this cheap ass body spray that my mom gave me for Christmas a few years ago that I'm 99% sure she bought at the Dollar Store. Unfortunately, when I go to spray the stuff, it doesn't come out in a nice spray instead it comes out in droplets all over the floor. So I end up grabbing bathroom cleaner and spraying it into the air. It's not even 10 yet, and the kitchen doesn't smell like poop so I felt successful. It turns out the plumber didn't even get here until 10:17 anyways so I didn't even need to stress out so much. Although I was stressed about the fact that they weren't going to be before I needed to leave the house at 11 to go with Tianna to hang out while she did her errands. As 10:40 approaches I come up with a plan, I decide to sneak out of the house through the window of my parents' bedroom, so the plumbers won't know I left. The plumbers were gone at this time to go get the proper tools so I took my purse and my shoes and put them by the window in my parents' room. I then return to my bedroom to wait. At 11, I go to the bathroom and pass the plumbers who are under the sink, I decide that after I'm done peeing I will escape through the window which is what I did. I run around the back of the house and go to the park by my house to wait for Tianna to pick me up.
Later, we come back to my house, and I give Tianna a tour of the house. We decide to look for a tape measure to see how big I should get my tattoo when I find a lighter, and I tell Tianna how I've been finding lighters a lot recently, and how I think someone in my house is smoking weed. We proceed to search my parents' bedroom to see if there's any weed amongst their things. We don't find any, so we decide to search my step sister's room to see if there's any in her room. After we've almost given up I realize her backpack is sitting on her floor and we haven't looked through it yet. We open her backpack, and on top is a metal lunchbox, we open the lunchbox, and inside... there is a pipe, old roaches, and a pack of cigerattes. She also had crushed up can that she had used as a pipe. Unfortunately, we didn't find any weed, so we have decided that tonight once everyone is asleep we are going to search her car. 

Pokemon Go

Recently, I've been spending quite a bit of time playing Pokemon Go even after I made fun of my friends for playing it. But as it turns out, it's actually really fun. It's getting me out of the house and doing something on my days off other than hanging out with Tianna, who is currently out of town, or helping my mom clean out her house in the hopes that I'll stay on her good side and she will give me her car which so far seems to be working. However, that could end any day now. My dad and I like to take my dog, P-Knut for walks and play Pokemon at the same time. Tonight, we went downtown to walk around, and there were about 20 people gathered between two Pokestops because there were lure modules at both stops. It was kind of cool to see. People in this stupid town getting out of their houses and congregating in a random places across town. It's better than the alternative which is everybody stay indoors playing Xbox and smoking pot all day. It's also kind of fun being part of something that you know other people are enjoying, and it's almost as if you're all part of this club. You walk around and recognize other people who are doing the same thing as you even though they're perfect strangers. Everybody at work kind of thinks it's lame, but oh well they haven't tried it so how would they know. There's this one guy who I grew up with who was about to bash on the game until I said I play it. Today, he asked me about my Pokemon, and asked me if I had Pikachu yet which unfortunately I do not. My mom told me she thinks ISIS is using it to spy on the US which I think is stupid because they could just use Google Earth for that shit. Sometimes I swear to god I am adopted because of the people in my family. 

Peacocks, Pills, and Parents

This past week has been pretty eventful in a way. On Wednesday night, I got super drunk and took some Oxycotin which I regretted the next day because I can't remember if I added this guy on Facebook and then cancelled the request which would be awkward because I've never actually talked to this guy he was just someone from my school that I find attractive. Also the next day I was super shaky and almost threw up. I ended up hanging out with Tianna that day, and I told her this story from when I was a little kid. If I remember right I was probably only about four years old when my family decided to get some peacocks, this was when we lived out in the middle of nowhere with a huge yard, but no land. Anyways, we were in our truck, and my brothers were holding onto the peacocks. When we got home, my parents told my brothers to make sure they had a good grip on the peacocks because the doors to the truck were going to open. My parents open the door, and out fly the peacocks except the babies. My parents chased after the peacocks, but they weren't able to get them. I remember for the longest time we had peacocks just sitting in the field by our house, and somedays they would be in the trees of our yard. I don't know what ended up happening to any of the peacocks, but I do know that one night when we came home my dad was driving. We pulled into the driveway, and we see a possum in our yard. Instead of parking the car my dad starts to speed up. He chases the possum through our yard in the car until he leaves. He was disappointed in the end because he was trying to kill it. 

On Friday, my dad and I were at the bank together when we started talking about my brother, Josh. I was saying I was concerned for him because of his problems with substance abuse, and as usual my dad just brushed off saying he thinks Josh is doing just fine. He also said that Josh needs a nice woman in his life because apparently she will solve all his problems. He then proceeded to ask me when I was going to find myself a nice man. I told him I was going to be like Coco Chanel and never get married. He didn't say anything to that, but it made me mad that he expects me to find a man and settle down after all these years of him telling me that marriage and having children was for boring people. So I guess he wants me to do what everybody does regardless of what I want. I let it go at the time because we were going to see The Avett Brothers, but if he brings it up again I might say something more about it. 

Also The Avett Brothers concert was absolutely amazing like they always are. I love those guys so much I wish I could spend the rest of my life following them around. They make me so happy. 

Chenowith Flu

For the past week and a half I have been sick. I haven't been this sick since I worked at this day care the summer before my senior year. I got sick from Brandon's son, and then I proceeded to get my dad sick. I got a sinus infection on this past Wednesday and it went finally went away today. I'm almost over all of it except today I had a little bit of a cough and my voice gave out on me a few times today. When my dad was sick, I'm pretty Sharron gave him Jack Daniel's at 8 in the morning she called it, "cough medicine." He was pretty loopy saying he had a face cancer, and the only way to get better was to give him meth because he had the Chenowith Flu. According to him if you have the, "Chenowith Flu," you need meth to feel better. Luckily, meth was completely unnecessary to get over this flu. Although if it had persisted for much longer I might have been willing to try it that's how terrible I felt.
In other news, I found out I did not get the campus apartment I wanted for next year, so I have to live in the dorms for one quarter, and then hopefully if I can find a place, I can move into my own apartment. My mom is hopefully going to give me her car since she's moving to the Marshall Islands for two years. She's also going to give me some furniture and kitchen items which will be useful. I'm really nervous about this upcoming year because I'll need to apply to my major at some point, find a job, find a place to live, have a new orchestra conductor, and get a better handle on what the fuck I'm doing with my life because I have absolutely no idea. I just need to stop thinking about all this stuff right now though. I should be focusing on the fact that in five days I'm going to see the AVETT BROTHERS for the third time. I love them so much, and their new album. They truly are the most amazing band of all time. I'm sorry, Dad, even though you're not reading this, but Bruce isn't my favorite musician of all time, Scott Avett is. 

A Good Last Day

This year's Fourth of July will be one I never forget. It started out with me going to work while my family went rafting, and I was at work until 3:30 after Nick decided it was an acceptable time for us to leave. After work I went to the BBQ Brandon and his girlfriend were having at their house. I was only there for a little bit to see Josh before he drove him and my nephew. I went up to my friend Tianna's house to see her and another one of my friends. The two of them had to leave at 9, so I went back to Brandon's house to watch the fireworks with him, his girlfriend, and my nephew. I ended up getting home around 11, and my dad was still up. He'd been waiting for me to get home. I went to my room, and I heard him call my name. At first I thought I was in trouble, but for what I had no idea. When I walked into the living room he told my dad Tweakers had died after they got home from the BBQ at Brandon's house. He was laying in his bed, and he stopped breathing. My dad buried him in the backyard before I got home. The next day we went and bought some flowers to plant around his grave. My dog was ten years old when he died. He was the most loyal dog. All year he would run away from my dad's house to my brother's or my mom's looking for me. I'm going to miss him. I was planning on getting an apartment so he could come live with me, but I guess that's not going to happen now. I'm just glad he got to see my whole family one last time and chewed on a rib bone on his last day. I think he had a good last day. 

Time Machine Needed

So it's been about ten days since I've been home, and honestly I cannot wait to go back already. This is going to be a very long summer I can tell. Mostly because there's almost always someone here except for maybe a couple of hours on my day off other than that people are here constantly. I really miss when it was just my dad and me living here, and I would have quite a bit of time to myself most days. Although I'm thinking about going to Idaho for fourth of July weekend with one of my friends which could be nice. At least it will give me a break from being home for a couple of days. I'm tired of everyone at work and at my house, and it's not even July yet. Someone please get me a time machine so I can skip past these three awful months. At least the Avett Brothers' album is coming out this Friday. I also should check to see if my grades for last quarter have been posted yet. They hadn't posted grades yet last week, so it's possible they've done it by now. 

The Countdowns Begin

Last weekend, I got to see Everclear which was really fun and amazing. I've been listening to Everclear my whole life, and I have always loved that song, "Wonderful," as well as many others but "Wonderful" was kind of the anthem of my childhood. Art Alexakis has always been one of my favorite musicians, but he's one of the few that I actually idolize as a person. He has overcome so much in his life that it's incredibly inspiring. I think he's the greatest musician to have come out of Portland, and he's definitely in my top three favorite as well as Bruce Springsteen and Scott Avett. Speaking of, Scott Avett, I cannot wait for the Avett Brothers' new album to come out. It's only 9 MORE DAYS until it's released. I also get to go see them in concert in July which I'm completely stoked for as well. There are so many exciting things going on in music that I'm ecstatic. I really can't wait until I'm a part of all of it. Someday, someone will be looking forward to something I recorded or something that I helped record, depending on what I end up doing. Either way someday someone will be anxiously awaiting a concert or an album or anything else that I may have taken part in creating, and that's honestly an exhilarating thought. I don't want to be famous I just want to make an impact somehow, and music will be the way I get to do that, and I can't wait. 

Coming Home

I finished finals, packed up my stuff, and now I'm home. It's safe to say that it's going to be a very long next three months. I've been awake for an hour now, and I can't tell if no one is here or if everyone is in their rooms being really quiet. It's kind of creepy. I'm pretty sure everyone has heard me get up, but that's because I had to do laundry and shower. Also showering was weird I got into the shower, and thought something doesn't seem right that's when I realized that I didn't have flip flops on to shower. I don't need to wear flip flops here to shower. It was strange actually being bare foot in the shower. Although it was nice to shower in a bathroom by yourself, same with not having to go to the bathroom in a stall, or having to brush my teeth at a sink with someone next to you brushing her teeth. I also have a room to myself even if it is full of my stuff from my dorm room. I don't have a grumpy roommate coming in and out of the door constantly while I'm trying to sleep or slamming the door while I'm sleeping or slamming the window shut. I only have my dog, P-Knut to share my room with. I did have a hard time falling asleep and staying asleep at first last night that's why I slept for so long today. I need to look on the bright side this summer though. I'm going to an Everclear concert tomorrow, The Avett Brothers are releasing an album in two weeks, going to the Avett Brothers concert in July, going to a Wilco concert in September, and The Head and the Heart are releasing an album in September, so it's going to be a good summer for music even if I'm stuck at home. This way I get to listen to all of it without being interrupted by homework or school or anything else. Although I do have to work, but oh well. It's going to be a great summer, for sure....... Ok it might be a bearable summer. 

Simple Life

Well, it's week 9 of the quarter which means in 17 days I'm going home. I'm not really excited about going home mostly because I never know what to expect when I go back. Last time I came home another person was living there. This time I'm pretty sure I'm going home to a different house because I think my dad bought a new house, but I'm not entirely sure. He hasn't really told me, so I guess I'll find it when I go home. Also when I get back my dad is only home for a week before he leaves for Denmark. I'm going to be alone for at least two weeks which is fine but it's kind of weird. Sometimes, I wonder what goes through my dad's head. Not to mention I feel more confused about who I am and what I want to be then I did at the beginning of the year. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted when I came here, but now I'm not so sure. I have no idea at all what I want. I don't feel like I have what it takes to be a musician or do any of the things I originally wanted to do. I might as well just go back home get a crappy job and live there. There's really nothing wrong with that, and it's simpler life that way. It's possible to live on a minimum wage job there, and over time I'd get promoted or something. I could live like that. All I'd have to do is get knocked up by the guy I'd be dating, and then I'd be just like everyone else there. It wouldn't be so bad. I could even say I tried to do something with my life and failed, and then I'd still have a leg up on everyone there. I'm sure I'd have less anxiety that way. I probably wouldn't be happy, but then again who really is. 

Beautiful

This morning I had a test in Aural Skills, and we had to sing the five types of scales without the piano. Afterwards my LA said that I have a good sense of pitch because I always stay in the right key, but I need to have confidence. She as far as to say, "You don't know your beautiful, musically." It made my day. She's one of my favorite people here even though the only times I've really talked to her have been because she's my LA for Aural Skills.
I found out yesterday I got 90% on my philosophy mid term which made me super happy. I still haven't gotten my mid term back for Music Theory which is making me nervous because I need to know if I did miserably on it or not.
Lately, I've been listening Mason Jennings' album, Blood of Man. It's probably the most underrated album I have ever listened to. I love it! I love his style, lyrics, everything. He's really an amazing songwriter and I don't know why he's not more popular. It makes me kind of depressed. All I want to do is listen to his album. I've even been avoiding my homework because of it. I wonder if he knows how beautiful his music is.

Dad's Day

This weekend was a good weekend. My dad came up for Dad's Day, but he took me to a Mariners game on Friday before Dad's Day. It was a good game Felix was pitching and Martin made an awesome last play that pretty much won the game for them. They have a pretty decent start to the season so far which is nice. I hope they keep it up then they might make it to the playoffs this year. We also went to the Sounders game yesterday the Sounders won too. I didn't really get what was going on but we had fun. We ate at Beecher's afterwards, they have such good Mac and Cheese. It was crazy busy there which makes sense all the tourists probably go there. This morning we went to the bakery a couple blocks away like we always do. I like it there but ironically I only go there when my dad comes to visit. We also saw the musical, The Spitfire Grill, last night that was pretty good too, but I still like the play they did at the beginning of the year the best.
In other news I get to apply for housing tomorrow. My friend Becky and I are going to try living in the apartments on campus. We have to room with a random third person though because Natasha still isn't talking to us. Oh well at least this way we'll get to meet a new person that goes here.
I have an interview on Tuesday to be broadcast manager at our school's radio station. I'm pretty nervous about it, but I went heart broken if I don't get it. I would like to get the job, but I'm not going to get my hopes up. 

Mixed Feelings

I thought things were going to get better for me this quarter, but it kind of seems like one thing gets fixed something else goes wrong. Natasha isn't talking to me anymore, and I don't even know. Every time I've texted her she ignores my message. I've tried talking to her in person, but she keeps avoiding me. I don't know what I did or if I did anything, but either way she's refusing to talk to me. At least Becky is still talking to me probably because Natasha has been ignoring her too. Dennis told me today that she's been having problems with her boyfriend's family and that her boyfriend isn't going to be able to visit like he had planned. I guess she wants to be alone, but she could tell me that instead of flat ignoring me. I just don't get it. 

In other happier news, my dad is coming to visit me next weekend, and I have an interview for the job I applied for. So that's pretty exciting. Also, I learned how to record audio for a concert last week, and sometime this quarter I'm supposed to do it on my own. Overall, this week has been pretty good except Natasha not talking to me. I wish she would say something to me even if it's just leave me alone or I don't want to talk to you, that would be better than absolutely nothing. 

Longest Week Ever

This has been the longest week ever. At least it feels like it. I have to finish a philosophy paper by tomorrow. I'm about halfway done with it. I'm hoping to finish it before orchestra rehearsal tonight. My week has been kind of a disaster though. My UCOR professor still doesn't know what my name is. Yesterday, he called me by my actual name, but then he called me Paige later on in the class. It was super weird. One day when he was taking attendance he said my name wrong, and I didn't know he was saying my name until he was finished with roll. Also when he called on me in class I could tell that he was disappointed with my answer. I don't think he likes me very much, mostly because I don't raise my hand and participate. I do, however, participate when he puts us into small groups which is more I can say for my UFDN class I had last quarter.
Anyways, I decided to start gauging my ears. I'm only go to a size 4 though, so my ears will go back to normal when I take them out. I've always liked gauges ever since I was a kid, but I've never done it myself because my parents wouldn't have let me. Also I'm probably going to get a few tattoos which I know they'd disapprove of too, but, oh well it's my body.
Things are super awkward with Dennis still. He pretty much thinks he has the right to psychoanalyze me without knowing anything about me. He's strangely very possessive of me, and it makes me uncomfortable, but I tried talking to him about it. He didn't really listen to me though, so I gave up. I'm hoping that he stops being so possessive otherwise I don't think I can be friends with him anymore. I called my dad Monday because I was having such a bad day. I told him a little bit about what's going on with Dennis, but not everything or he'd get pretty upset, and wouldn't ever like Dennis at all. Okay well, I've got to get back to homework now.

Friend or Flirt?

It's only been a week and spring quarter is already kicking my ass. I'm too exhausted to actually want to get up in the mornings. 18 credits is harder than I thought especially when of those classes is philosophy. That class practically terrifies me because it's my third class on Monday and Wednesday so my attention span is pretty used up by the time I get there, also our professor likes to randomly call on people, and I don't like that at all. I like to have some mental preparation for talking in class, and I don't have the energy to do that before philosophy every time I have it.
On another note, my dad is considering putting an offer on a house. He sent me the link to it, and it's a pretty nice house. It will be the nicest house anyone has ever owned in my family which really isn't saying much considering that my dad has lived in a crappy two bedroom apartment with three kids, and a double-wide trailer. The nicest house I've lived in is probably the one my mom has now, and the basement floods in the winter. She's done a ton of remodeling since I've lived so it's way better now than when she bought it.
Lately, our friend Dennis has been kind of rude and sassy towards Natasha and me. We don't really know why except that everyone blames it on me because he likes me and I don't like him back. That's not really an excuse to be mean to someone, but apparently it is because I guess I've led him on just because I treat my guy friends the same way I treat my female friends which is supposedly some sort of crime. I hate the fact that our society has wired us to believe that we have act differently around the opposite gender or else your actions can be mistaken to mean something else. I have always been accused of being flirty just because I joke around and enjoy other people's company, BUT it's only considered to be flirty when I interact with a male, not a female. In my opinion, there is something wrong with that picture.

BRUUUUUCE

I SAW BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN LAST NIGHT!!!!!! It was my first time ever seeing Bruce in concert, and I'm slightly depressed that it's this late in his career that I saw him for the first time. My dad has been going to see him for 30 years now, and he plans his vacations around where Bruce is touring. The only reason he's been to Europe is because of Bruce. My dad and his girlfriend are going to Denmark this summer just to see him. I'm kind of jealous because I have to stay here and work and watch everybody's houses–Brandon and his girlfriend are going on vacation at the same time. So I'll be left here by myself while my dad gets to see Bruce in Denmark and Sweden.
Anyways, back to last night. It was the best concert I've ever seen. I don't understand how a man at any age can go for three and a half hours giving it his all into every song he plays. I think he has some sort of super power. I was exhausted by the end of The River, but I suppose it helps that he's been doing this for years so he probably has some sort of stamina built up. I don't really know how he does it. He came down onto the floor a couple times, and Bruce walked 10 feet away from me. That in itself was a pretty amazing experience. I mean being within 10 feet of BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN is the coolest thing that has ever happened to me. If only I knew someone who was as stoked about Bruce Springsteen to tell this to besides my dad who was there and has actually touched Bruce. In honesty though my dad is right when he calls Bruce Springsteen our lord and savior because he pretty much is. I was really questioning what I wanted to do with my life last night because how could I ever be as great as Bruce Springsteen. It doesn't matter how many songs I write or how many shows I do, I'll never be like that, but I suppose I could just be me instead. I think that I could still somehow be something that people need maybe not the way people need Springsteen, but in a smaller scale. I could make a difference with my music, and that's really all I want to achieve. 

Old Friends

Today, I hung out with one of my friends from high school. It's been a long time since I've seen her. Since she moved in with her boyfriend our senior year I haven't talked to her until the start of this school year. It was really nice to see her especially because she's one of the few people who knows everything about me and doesn't judge me for it. I know that I could probably tell her anything and she would still be friends with me. I kinda felt awkward a little bit because her boyfriend was there for a lot of it, and the last time I saw him he didn't like me because he thought I was trying to break them up. Anyways, I don't care what he thinks of me anymore especially after what she told me on Thursday. She called me up to tell me that they were breaking me up and that he's been really abusive towards her. He hasn't hit her, but he shouldn't be treating her the way he does. It makes me really sad honestly. I know she's a much better person than she thinks. Although she does seem happier and more confident than she used to be, but I don't really know for sure. I know the main reason she's staying with him is because we've known him for so long. Also she's liked him for a really long time. I hope she figures out what she wants, and she gets that for herself. I know she can be more than she is right now. 

Roommate Problems

Lately, I've been having problems with my roommate. She's been deliberately rude to my friends and me when we're in the room which isn't that often. She's starting to drive me nuts. This entire quarter she's been in a bad mood in general which I know a lot of it was because she was so sick so I gave her some space and let her have time to herself in our room. I was trying to be considerate of the fact that she wasn't feeling well, but then she asked my friend why I'm never in the room anymore. She even had the stomach flu and said she was going to stay at her sister's until she felt better but she came back the next day while she was still sick. 

Monday night, I took a shower came back to her and her friend in the room which I didn't mind because she's actually nicer to me when her friends are here. I said hi to both of them, and then sat at my desk to do some work. Since they were talking I put some headphones so I could block out their conversation and concentrate on what I was doing. I ended up messaging my friends in our group chat about my parents both texting me about my dog and how I was frustrated with them for it because I can't do a single thing about it until I come home for break. All three of them ended up coming into my room all one at a time on their own. When Natasha came in, my roommate and her friend started to leave. Then Dennis and Becky came in after they left. After a few minutes though my roommate came back in and started blasting her music on laptop. She kept turning it up louder and louder every couple of minutes. It got to the point where I couldn't even hear anyone, but Dennis who was sitting right next to me. After a half an hour of this she finally turned off her music. I know it was her passive aggressive way of telling us she wanted us to leave, but we stayed anyways. I would understand her annoyance with us if we were in there all the time, but that's the second time all quarter they have been there at the same time as her. 

Yesterday, she didn't even acknowledge me all day or say a word to me. I tried smiling at her in the hallway when I walked past her, and she just glared at me. I don't understand what her problem is with me anymore. I also don't get why she seems to think she can do whatever she wants in our room, but to her I don't have the same right. All I can say is I'm glad there's only one quarter left after this one. 

Winter Week Ten

Last Friday, I went with Becky and Dennis to Gasworks Park and to see the Fremont Troll. We walked there from campus, and I told them a bunch of stories about the loser guys that liked me in high school. At one point, Becky asked me about my boyfriend, and I said in response that I didn't want to talk about him because my best friend's mom wanted to give me a brochure about abusive relationships when I was with him. It's true she did want to give me one, but I think my friend stopped her which I'm actually really glad she did because I probably would have cried if that had happened. I just felt extremely awkward after saying that especially since Dennis was there. Maybe if Natasha had been there it wouldn't have been so awkward, but I don't really know. 

Saturday, while I was work Natasha and Dennis came to see me at work like they normally do, but this time they were meeting Dennis' mom there which was pretty awkward too. I didn't know what to do because I was still supposed to be working, and I didn't know what to say to anybody, so I just kept doing my usual prepping for closing routine. I noticed how much his mom seemed to like Natasha, and I couldn't help but think how Natasha is the type of girl that can meet a guy's family and they are going to love her. I, on the other hand, am not that type of girl. I'm not the type of girl a guy brings home to meet his family. I just don't have all those fantastic girlfriend qualities that so many girls seem to have. I'm just kind of there. I don't know how to be that dream girl for someone. It's weird because I haven't thought about this kind of thing for a long time, but now I can't stop thinking about it. It's lame I know, but I can't help but wonder if anyone ever is actually going to love me. I mean I know I have my family, but they are terrible at acting like a family, and I don't think I'll ever have any other family which is what terrifies me. 

Group Chat

Last day of February! I actually don't know why that is exciting other than that means it's only almost Spring Break which would be more exciting if I didn't have to go home. Although the upside is I get to see BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN over break!!! I cannot wait for that!
Lately, my wrist is absolutely killing, so I bought a wrist splint. I wear it at night and during the day when I'm on the computer, but I think I need to get some sort of tape to use while playing violin because that's when it hurts the most. I think I'll look for some KT tape when I go run some errands today.
I have an orchestra concert this week. I'm pretty nervous for it although I say that before every concert it seems like. I just hope I can play without wanting to cry that seems to be common occurrence for me. Musician pain is kind of the worse thing in the world due to the uncomfortable positions we put ourselves in for extended periods of time. It sucks.
My friends Natasha, Dennis, Becky and I all have a group chat on Facebook that we use to talk to each other pretty much all day. It's a lot of fun actually. We also have another that has Natasha's boyfriend as well because he really wanted to be part of a group chat.
My latest music obsession is Lucy Dacus. Her debut album, No Burden is a masterpiece. I absolutely love it! Her voice is incredible, her lyrics cause you to do some soul searching, and her songs all together are beautiful. Plus she's just kind of an adorable human. I watched a live performance of her it was pretty funny. She's probably my new favorite person. I think if we knew each other we'd be best friends. 

Lost in the Woods

I had a pretty great weekend. Friday night I saw Palehound live. It was really awesome. There were two local bands before Palehound. I liked the band, Great Grandpa, but not the other band. It was a small venue, but it was a great night of music. Palehound was obviously my favorite band of the night, but it was really cool to hear a local band that I had never head of before. I always love discovering new music that I like. Natasha had a good time, but I'm not sure Dennis did, only because it wasn't really his kind of music. Saturday, we had EMP in our dorm. It was pretty cool, I guess. I don't really get why everyone gets so hyped about it. Today, I had a very interesting day indeed. Natasha and I had to be tied together for eight hours straight for an assignment in one of her classes. She has to write an essay about the nonverbal communication that took place between us that was a sign of tension. We didn't really get that annoyed with each other though, so I don't know what she's going to write about.
Since we're supposed to do something out in public while being tied together we decided to go to Discovery Park. We had to take the bus though because we don't have a car. Dennis decided to come with us too. We get on the first bus to transfer to the next bus. The problem we had was we didn't cross the street before getting on our next bus, so we ended up going in the wrong direction. We went pretty far before I realized it, so we get off at some random stop to go the other direction. We get off at this pretty sketchy stop that had a lot of homeless and crazy people. There was a guy with blood on his shirt, and another guy had no shirt on under his coat. This other guy was just babbling crazy stuff about who knows what. The three of us were pretty scared. Towards the end a security guard showed up, so I was less nervous then. Also the guy with the bloody shirt had left by that time. Finally, our bus arrives, and it's another 20 minutes to the park. We get to the park and walk all the way to the water, but it's dark by the time we start walking back. So we're just walking through this random park in the dark for a couple of miles before we finally find the bus stop to get back. All in all, I'm pretty glad to be alive after our weird adventure today. 

A Thai Valentine's Day

Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I've had at work. I was still pretty mad about it when I got off work until I started watching New Moon and making fun of it with a couple of my friends. One of the girl's who works at Sandella's and lives on my floor was asking people to cover her shift on Saturday, and since nobody answered her besides me, I ended up working her shift for her as well as mine. I didn't mind working her shift, it was simple, easy, like Sandella's normally is, but later that day during my shift, the other person who's supposed to show up, never did. I called my manager after an hour of him not showing up, my manager didn't answer, and called me back that night. Normally, I wouldn't have minded so much because Saturdays are usually completely dead, but not last night. People kept coming one after another until about 7:40, and we close at 8:00, so I didn't get to start closing up until 7:45ish. When there are two people, we usually start doing stuff for closing around 7:00 because there is so little to do. I ended up skipping a few things for closing, so I could get out of there by 8:30. My guess is the guy who's supposed to work that shift probably called in sick, and no one told me because communication there sucks so much for weekend people. I can't wait until I can quit at the end of the quarter. 

On a brighter note, I went out for Thai food today with my friends for Valentine's Day. It was Natasha, Dennis, Brandon, and me all together again. I'm pretty sure most people probably think we're on a double date when the four of us are together, but then again probably not. We don't act like couples at all, so that helps. Anyways, Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Independent Music

This week has gone by super fast. Honestly, I think my life is going by super fast. It's weird really, I remember being about six or seven years old and thinking I couldn't wait to get older. I still sometimes think that. I think about how awesome it would be to be middle aged. Your kids are pretty grown up by that time, so you basically can do whatever you want. I mean at least if you're my dad you can do whatever you want. He owns his company so he doesn't have a boss. I'm out of the house. He literally doesn't have to answer to anyone, and something about that seems so freeing. Now I think where my deep rooted independence comes from. 

I got my first experience with getting the chance to learn some stuff about how the music tech department works here. It was pretty cool. I actually got to do a couple of things, nothing super exciting but still it was fun. I got to change the slides so the audience could sing along. I also got to set up and take the cameras. Oh and this pretty attractive guy had to explain things to me that was pretty cool because I'm so socially awkward I rarely talk to new people unless I'm forced to. Another cute guy was wearing an Avett Brothers t-shirt yesterday which completely made my day. 

Today, I woke up to The Lumineers' countdown being over, so I got to hear their new song again this morning. I figured out last night that Apple Music already had their single available, so I got to listen to it last night. WOOHOO!!! I was actually really happy with Ophelia. It's a really good song, and I can't wait until April 8th!!! 

Nerds Don't Need Sleep

It's only Wednesday, and I keep thinking it's the end of the week. I'm so tired I could fall asleep right now, and it's not even 6:30... I keep waking up in the middle of the night thinking it's time for me to get up for class because I'm afraid I'm going to sleep through my class. I used to do that all the time in high school. I would set two alarms, but I don't want to wake up my roommate. I think I need to chill out a little, but I can't help it. I know nothing extremely awful would if I missed class once, but I'm still too terrified to risk it. That's how much of a nerd I am sometimes.
Also lately, I feel sick to my stomach all the time. I honestly think it's the food here because I never feel this sick at home. Our cafeteria is making me want to die. I can't sleep or eat like a normal person right or even socialize. The only thing I can do is my homework, and only after much procrastination. I should be writing a reflection right now, but I'm avoiding by blogging instead. At least my dad is coming this weekend so at least I have something to look forward to. 

No Bowling

Last night, I had a very fun and interesting adventure with my friends. My one friend Natasha and I almost always go out and do something on Friday. So yesterday her idea was to go bowling because her boyfriend in Georgia was going bowling. We invited Brandon to go with us too because we tried to get him to go somewhere with us last time, but we ended up leaving him behind semi by accident. We also decided to invite his roommate, Dennis, who is also our new friend since we play video games in his room all the time. Normally, when we invite Dennis to go somewhere with us he says no, so it was a pretty big deal when he agreed to go with us.
Anyways, we all get on the bus to go bowling, and we had some difficulty figuring it out but not much. We get to the bowling alley after about an hour or so of being on the bus. The guy comes out of the door to ask if we have our ID's. Natasha didn't check to see if the bowling alley was 21 and over before we left. So we walk away and go into Chipotle because Natasha loves it there, and everyone was hungry. We end sitting at Chipotle for an hour and a half before deciding to go to the movies two blocks away. We go to see The Revenant in this really cool theater. The Revenant was two and a half hours long, so we didn't get out of the theater until about 9:30, but we ended up getting back to campus at 10:30. Dennis made fun of The Revenant while we were waiting at the bus stop it was pretty funny even though I did like the movie.
On the bus, Natasha asks this guy to take our picture with her polaroid, and Dennis' face gets covered by the pole, so you can only see part of his face. All in all it was pretty good night. We had a lot of fun even though all our plans fell through, but I suppose that's what made it more fun.

MLK Weekend

Saturday morning, I was woken up by a lockdown instead of an alarm or just on my own. My roommate wasn't here, so I was in my room by myself. I had to, of course, put my blinds down, one set I had to hold in place while letting the blinds down otherwise they fell down. Although no one from the ground can even see into my room. The whole thing kind of freaked me out because I'm not used to having real lockdowns. We just had drills at my high school, nothing ever happened there really. Also I had no idea what the lockdown was for, so that kind of makes it worse. The texts they sent just said that the police were on campus and that was it. I found out later that an armed person was running from the cops through our campus. They arrested him after the lockdown was over.
After lunch that day, my friend and I went downtown so I could a second piercing on my ears. The lady who pierced my ears was sneaky she asked me if I wanted a countdown and I told her no. So right before she was about to pierce my ear she said, "You said no countdown, right," and just as I was about to say right she pierced it.
I decided this weekend that I'm probably going to get a tattoo. I had wanted this one specific tattoo when I was in high school, but my friends hadn't liked it so I had decided against. I told my friends about the tattoo I wanted, and they liked it, so I think I'm going to get it, depending on how much it costs. I would get the F-holes on the violin tattooed on my back to make it look like a human violin. I think it would be cool, and I love the violin, so it works for me. If I don't become a musician, I'll at least always play the violin, so it won't be like I'm getting a tattoo of something that doesn't mean anything to me. 

Palehound

Today, I had a good day. I went to work for only an hour. I got up and went to Music Theory today because we're not having it on Monday. My class that I normally have was cancelled today, so after Music Theory I went back to bed, and then went to work afterwards. A group of my friends and I went to Petco and Fred Meyer's. I navigated us from Petco to Fred Meyer's and then back to campus. It wasn't really that hard because I have a secret app that I didn't tell them about. We also played Super Smash Bros again tonight. We've been quite frequently, and I won most of the time tonight only because Daniel wasn't playing.
Tomorrow my one friend and I are going to get Mexican food after I'm done with work which I'm kind of excite about. I get to eat something from off campus. I don't really like having to eat on campus all the time. The food gets really repetitive, really fast. I can't wait until next year when I don't have to have a meal plan or have to live on campus.
I also recently discovered this band called, Palehound, not a huge fan of the name, but Ellen Kempner is pretty fucking awesome. I love her guitar playing, it's amazing! Also her songs are funny. I can't wait for her to come to Seattle. I think my friend and I are gonna go to her concert. I'm pretty excited because it will be the first concert I've been to in awhile besides the orchestra concert, and the ones we have here on campus.

Vomit and Video Games

Yesterday, my grandma emailed at 2:30 in the morning. I guess I know where I get my insomnia, it must run in the family. She asked me if I had just cashed a check that she had given me in 2010. I told her I had because I just found it in my room when I was cleaning it. I found it before I left for college, but I didn't cash until Christmas Break.
Last Friday, my friend and I were downtown waiting for the bus to get back to campus. While we were standing there this guy runs past us to throw up in the street right in front of us. It was probably the grossest thing ever. My friend said he was drunk because she could smell the booze on his breath. I was lucky enough to not get a whiff that awful scent. Once we got on the bus though, it was packed, probably because it was around 5, so everyone was just getting off work. Although we passed this bar, and it was already full of people at about 4:30. We passed Key Arena, and I caught a glimpse of the new site for KEXP. I'm so excited for it. I'm going to go there once it's finished.
All weekend I ended up playing Super Smash Bros a lot. We played for 3 hours on Friday and Saturday we played it again as well as Game and Wario which was a lot more fun than I was expecting. On Sunday we played Super Smash Bros again. I also played League of Legends Saturday. I was about to go to bed when my friend snapchatted me and asked me to play one game with her and her boyfriend. I sucked miserably, but I haven't played it that much, and I was super tired, and my mouse wasn't working. I have multiple reasonable excuses as to why I suck at video games.

Good Start for 2016

Today is my first day back for winter quarter. I almost didn't get here last night because the weather back home was really bad. It snowed the day before I had to leave, and it was super icy on top of that. I took the train to Seattle from Portland. It was nearly as nice as the trip from Seattle to Portland. I actually had to sit next to someone, and there weren't any tables just those drop down trays that planes have. It felt a lot like a plane to be honest. I really hope my trips in the future will be more like my trip down to Portland. Luckily, the train arrived exactly on time in Seattle because I had to catch the bus 8 minutes after the train was scheduled to arrive to get back to campus. When I went to Portland the train was about 10-15 minutes late because we had to let a freighter pass us before we could get to the station.
I've only had one class so far today, but I still have orchestra and music tech to go to later today. In my 8 AM today this guy said, "hello," but my friend and I couldn't tell if he was talking to us. He just kind of said it to the room, and then looked at us. It was kind of weird. He then sat down a few seats away from us. I also learned that a girl from floor has music tech with me later today which I'm super happy about it. I was really worried I wasn't going to know anyone in that class. It kind of feels like I'm in high school when I'm concerned about who's going to be in my classes and who's not, but it's also not surprising with my levels of anxiety. I think I'll have less anxiety this quarter though because I know more people, and I have almost the same schedule as last quarter since I was taking prerequisites for the classes I have now.
Nine Inch Nails is kind of my new obsession right now which is kind of perfect timing since he has a new album coming out this year. The Head and the Heart should hopefully have an album coming out this year as well as the Lumineers and the Avett Brothers, so I'm super stoked for those too. This year I think is going to be a good year which is what I need, one good year.