Simple Life

Well, it's week 9 of the quarter which means in 17 days I'm going home. I'm not really excited about going home mostly because I never know what to expect when I go back. Last time I came home another person was living there. This time I'm pretty sure I'm going home to a different house because I think my dad bought a new house, but I'm not entirely sure. He hasn't really told me, so I guess I'll find it when I go home. Also when I get back my dad is only home for a week before he leaves for Denmark. I'm going to be alone for at least two weeks which is fine but it's kind of weird. Sometimes, I wonder what goes through my dad's head. Not to mention I feel more confused about who I am and what I want to be then I did at the beginning of the year. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted when I came here, but now I'm not so sure. I have no idea at all what I want. I don't feel like I have what it takes to be a musician or do any of the things I originally wanted to do. I might as well just go back home get a crappy job and live there. There's really nothing wrong with that, and it's simpler life that way. It's possible to live on a minimum wage job there, and over time I'd get promoted or something. I could live like that. All I'd have to do is get knocked up by the guy I'd be dating, and then I'd be just like everyone else there. It wouldn't be so bad. I could even say I tried to do something with my life and failed, and then I'd still have a leg up on everyone there. I'm sure I'd have less anxiety that way. I probably wouldn't be happy, but then again who really is. 

Beautiful

This morning I had a test in Aural Skills, and we had to sing the five types of scales without the piano. Afterwards my LA said that I have a good sense of pitch because I always stay in the right key, but I need to have confidence. She as far as to say, "You don't know your beautiful, musically." It made my day. She's one of my favorite people here even though the only times I've really talked to her have been because she's my LA for Aural Skills.
I found out yesterday I got 90% on my philosophy mid term which made me super happy. I still haven't gotten my mid term back for Music Theory which is making me nervous because I need to know if I did miserably on it or not.
Lately, I've been listening Mason Jennings' album, Blood of Man. It's probably the most underrated album I have ever listened to. I love it! I love his style, lyrics, everything. He's really an amazing songwriter and I don't know why he's not more popular. It makes me kind of depressed. All I want to do is listen to his album. I've even been avoiding my homework because of it. I wonder if he knows how beautiful his music is.

Dad's Day

This weekend was a good weekend. My dad came up for Dad's Day, but he took me to a Mariners game on Friday before Dad's Day. It was a good game Felix was pitching and Martin made an awesome last play that pretty much won the game for them. They have a pretty decent start to the season so far which is nice. I hope they keep it up then they might make it to the playoffs this year. We also went to the Sounders game yesterday the Sounders won too. I didn't really get what was going on but we had fun. We ate at Beecher's afterwards, they have such good Mac and Cheese. It was crazy busy there which makes sense all the tourists probably go there. This morning we went to the bakery a couple blocks away like we always do. I like it there but ironically I only go there when my dad comes to visit. We also saw the musical, The Spitfire Grill, last night that was pretty good too, but I still like the play they did at the beginning of the year the best.
In other news I get to apply for housing tomorrow. My friend Becky and I are going to try living in the apartments on campus. We have to room with a random third person though because Natasha still isn't talking to us. Oh well at least this way we'll get to meet a new person that goes here.
I have an interview on Tuesday to be broadcast manager at our school's radio station. I'm pretty nervous about it, but I went heart broken if I don't get it. I would like to get the job, but I'm not going to get my hopes up.