Awards for All

We had the Scholarship Awards Night last night at our school. The whole thing was miserably long and terribly boring for the majority of us. I basically sat there and listened to the same four names get repeated over and over and over again. It was slightly annoying. Especially the ones who would say things like, "I've been waiting to get this scholarship to so-so for years now," or, "This award is for a senior who blah blah blah and it helps that they're a great babysitter." The whole thing made me sick to my stomach. It was amazing I even got one scholarship considering that my parents aren't active members of the community, and I haven't lived here my whole life like everyone else has. Also I don't play any sports, but apparently if you play baseball and football people want to give you tons of money, and if you're going to school in the same state as my high school which I'm not. It didn't even help that I'm part of the arts because of course this one guy in my class received all of those because he's going to the Boston Conservatory and everyone in my town is convinced he's going to be on Broadway someday. He's also very good at ass kissing which is not something I've ever been able to do because I have some dignity.
I did get a scholarship that I wasn't even sure if I applied for. I was zoning off when the guy was talking about the scholarship because I was positive I didn't get it, and all of sudden I hear him say my name, and it took me a second to realize that it was me he was talking about. I was finally able to join the other students up on stage even though over half of them were already up there. My heart was pounding so hard that I barely said thank you above a whisper. The other scholarship I received I thought I would get because I did know the person that gives it out every year. It's the scholarship my middle school band teacher gives, and since I still see him quite regularly and have kept on good terms with him I thought I had a really good chance at getting it. I was so happy when they announced my name for that one because it actually meant something to me to get it.

Bible of Violin

I woke up at 5:30 this morning that was not pleasant for me. Then I went to a very much waste of time,  Jazz Band rehearsal. There were only seven of us, and my band teacher tried to make me improv today, but there was no way in hell that I was going to randomly start improving after waking up an hour and a half earlier than I usually do. Also he has never tried to make me do improv before. I did however have a very pleasant violin lesson today with my teacher. She bought me Kreutzer as a graduation present. She is the sweetest woman ever. She told me Kreutzer is the bible of violin. She was a judge assistant to the first chairman of the Oregon Symphony when she was in college, and he had told she had to get Kreutzer because it's the bible of violin. I am so sad that last week is going to be my last lesson with her. I will miss her very much. She has been one of the best role models in my life, and I think my life would be very, very different without her.

Prom Night

I went to prom last night. Surprisingly, it was actually kind of fun. I went with my friends, so my "date" was a girl, but that was fine with me. Last time I went to a dance I went with my boyfriend and his friends, that was probably the most awkward night of my entire life. This time I felt ten times less awkward. I also looked nicer than last time because I had a better dress. We actually stayed for almost the whole thing, and then went back to my friend's house and watched Maleficent.
Today, I'm going to my grandma's house for Mother's Day. My aunt and her son will be there so will my older brother Josh. Brandon has to work today, so he doesn't get to go. I bought my mom a card and a candle and left it on her doorstep. I don't plan on her seeing her today partly because she's busy with all the First Communion crap today. She'll be at Mass and then off to one of her second grader's parties just like every other year. The other reason I'm not going to see her is I just don't really want to. She texted me at midnight Friday night, technically Saturday morning, and asked me if I was going to prom. Of all the times to ask me if I was going she picked midnight the night before prom. She could've asked me long before then, and actually made an attempt to be there to help me get ready or something. Instead I had to get ready at my friend's house with her mom and none of my parents which is okay I guess. It was just a little uncomfortable because they were getting out jewelry and stuff for me to put on, and my friend says to me, "It's okay. I know you don't have a mom to do this stuff with." I don't really know why she said that when I do have a mom, just not a mom who is very active in my life.

iWorld

My dad came home today and said, "Are you sure you're going to graduate?" I said yes with a puzzled look because I wasn't entirely sure what he was getting at with this question. I thought it might have to do with skipping school today, but I don't really have any classes to go to on Friday anymore since I took my AP exam. He asked this same question multiple times until finally he entered the house with a rectangular cardboard box. My new laptop had already come, and I was able to open it before I graduated. It's a Macbook Pro, so I'll be able to fit in with all the other college kids in Seattle. I have a complete iWorld now. I have an iPhone, iPad, iPod touch, and a Macbook. I'm such a cool kid. Not. I wish having Apple products alone was enough to make me cool, but alas in this world it requires much more than that. Oh well, I'll keep on being a looooooser. I've come to terms with it by now. Besides I'm not a loser just socially awkward.

Can't Wait for Summer

I just realized today it's been almost a month since I've been on here. So much crap has been happening: my dog almost died of cancer, I had my last concert for Gorge Strings and Sinfonietta, took an AP Calculus test this morning, my mom had a job interview I don't know what the outcome of it was, took a music theory proficiency exam for college( I needed a 90% got a 93% and I've never taken a music theory class in my life), learned about my dad's plans for his future record label (apparently he's going to make super group concert comprised of Shakey Graves, Benjamin Booker, and Courtney Barnett), wrote some songs, and wrote two essays, one about a monument honoring Bruce Springsteen and one about I Believe people talk too much. There was possibly a few things I missed out on, but I'm so unbelievably tired right now I can't remember. Oh yeah I also finished my stupid senior binder, that entire thing was pointless because I already know what I'm going to do for the next four years, sort of. I still don't know if I have gotten any local scholarships, but I was invited to some banquet for being in the top 10% in my class, I'm not sure how I'm still in the top 10%, but that's cool.
My dog was sick for a couple days, and the vet thought he might have cancer, but he only had pneumonia. Now he's hopping around on three legs for some odd reason. I have no idea why because his leg doesn't seem to hurt him.
At my last Sinfonietta, they honored my violin teacher because it was her last concert too. She then proceeded to thank people, and said that she had to recognize someone else who was leaving this year too which happened to be me. She made me stand up in front of all those people and told them that I was going off to college to study music. I was super embarrassed, and afterward my dad said, "I've never seen anyone look so uncomfortable in my life." I guess I should get used to being on stage since that is what I want to do for my career. I really wish that I had less social anxiety.

Too Much School

This last week I went to only three days of school because I went to a preview of the college I'm going to next year. Also Friday we didn't have school the end of the quarter so it was a grading day for teachers. On Tuesday, our principal decided to have a tardy sweep of course I was late. Part of this tardy sweep is you go to the attendance office and write your name on a piece of paper causing you to be even later for class. It makes tons of sense right? All of this is to give you detention for being late to a random class period, and they do this tardy sweep about every other month so the whole thing is kind of dumb. Especially if someone is rarely late and happens to be one or two minutes late. Later that day I went home to work on a paper and came back before lunch to print it off at the school. As I'm walking down the hall I get stopped by the same idiot subsitute who stops me in the hall every time he's there during the same class period. Tuesday, he asked, "have you been wandering the hall this entire time?" I said, "no, I just got here." He of course had to ask why I just got to school so I told him I had a free period and went home. He then left me alone. The whole thing was so irritating. I don't even know why that dumbass is allowed so much authority at our school when he doesn't even work there full time. I can't wait to graduate. It's less than two months away, but that's too much time for me. I am ready to move on. After the preview, I'm actually kind of excited to go to college.

Easter Daze

Easter was a long day with way too much consumption of nothing but ham and sugar. My nephew was here so we had to have an Easter Egg hunt with probably thirty eggs just for him. My Grandma was also here. She likes to get here early so she can walk the dogs. I had to work yesterday for the part of the day so everyone could go home early for Easter. When I was driving home I passed my grandma walking the dogs. It was kind of a funny site because my grandma is on the corner with my two dogs. My dogs are sniffing around and trying to pee while my grandma is trying to move along, but she stops just for them and waits. I don't know why she didn't just pull them after her like my dad and I do. To the truth my dad doesn't really use the leashes with the dogs. He puts the leashes on them but just let's them roam around while he listens to Wall Street Journal and drinks his coffee.
I had to dye to eggs for the egg hunt as well which I had forgotten to do until 9:30 at night. I still had to boil them when I remembered them. I don't know about anyone but back when we dyed eggs when I was a little kid we used to put the dye in a cup from a cupboard and put the eggs in that. I guess now they provide these little plastic-like foldable cups that look like half-sized female condoms. I couldn't believe they actually put those things in the egg dying kit. I threw them out immediately after I was done with the dye. Before I put dissolved the tablet in the water, I laughed for about five minutes at the site of my five half-sized female condoms. The only reason I know such things exist is because of Health class my sophomore year. I hadn't know so many forms of birth control were available until then. Most of which sounded completely disturbing to me. I don't like needles or having little pieces of plastic contained inside my body all the time. I remember when one of my friends got one of those birth control plastic stick things shot into her arm. It freaked me out the way she would move it around underneath her skin. I get that it's easier than remembering to take a pill everyday, but is it really worth it? I think I'd rather take a pill everyday.