Old Friends

Today, I hung out with one of my friends from high school. It's been a long time since I've seen her. Since she moved in with her boyfriend our senior year I haven't talked to her until the start of this school year. It was really nice to see her especially because she's one of the few people who knows everything about me and doesn't judge me for it. I know that I could probably tell her anything and she would still be friends with me. I kinda felt awkward a little bit because her boyfriend was there for a lot of it, and the last time I saw him he didn't like me because he thought I was trying to break them up. Anyways, I don't care what he thinks of me anymore especially after what she told me on Thursday. She called me up to tell me that they were breaking me up and that he's been really abusive towards her. He hasn't hit her, but he shouldn't be treating her the way he does. It makes me really sad honestly. I know she's a much better person than she thinks. Although she does seem happier and more confident than she used to be, but I don't really know for sure. I know the main reason she's staying with him is because we've known him for so long. Also she's liked him for a really long time. I hope she figures out what she wants, and she gets that for herself. I know she can be more than she is right now. 

Roommate Problems

Lately, I've been having problems with my roommate. She's been deliberately rude to my friends and me when we're in the room which isn't that often. She's starting to drive me nuts. This entire quarter she's been in a bad mood in general which I know a lot of it was because she was so sick so I gave her some space and let her have time to herself in our room. I was trying to be considerate of the fact that she wasn't feeling well, but then she asked my friend why I'm never in the room anymore. She even had the stomach flu and said she was going to stay at her sister's until she felt better but she came back the next day while she was still sick. 

Monday night, I took a shower came back to her and her friend in the room which I didn't mind because she's actually nicer to me when her friends are here. I said hi to both of them, and then sat at my desk to do some work. Since they were talking I put some headphones so I could block out their conversation and concentrate on what I was doing. I ended up messaging my friends in our group chat about my parents both texting me about my dog and how I was frustrated with them for it because I can't do a single thing about it until I come home for break. All three of them ended up coming into my room all one at a time on their own. When Natasha came in, my roommate and her friend started to leave. Then Dennis and Becky came in after they left. After a few minutes though my roommate came back in and started blasting her music on laptop. She kept turning it up louder and louder every couple of minutes. It got to the point where I couldn't even hear anyone, but Dennis who was sitting right next to me. After a half an hour of this she finally turned off her music. I know it was her passive aggressive way of telling us she wanted us to leave, but we stayed anyways. I would understand her annoyance with us if we were in there all the time, but that's the second time all quarter they have been there at the same time as her. 

Yesterday, she didn't even acknowledge me all day or say a word to me. I tried smiling at her in the hallway when I walked past her, and she just glared at me. I don't understand what her problem is with me anymore. I also don't get why she seems to think she can do whatever she wants in our room, but to her I don't have the same right. All I can say is I'm glad there's only one quarter left after this one. 

Winter Week Ten

Last Friday, I went with Becky and Dennis to Gasworks Park and to see the Fremont Troll. We walked there from campus, and I told them a bunch of stories about the loser guys that liked me in high school. At one point, Becky asked me about my boyfriend, and I said in response that I didn't want to talk about him because my best friend's mom wanted to give me a brochure about abusive relationships when I was with him. It's true she did want to give me one, but I think my friend stopped her which I'm actually really glad she did because I probably would have cried if that had happened. I just felt extremely awkward after saying that especially since Dennis was there. Maybe if Natasha had been there it wouldn't have been so awkward, but I don't really know. 

Saturday, while I was work Natasha and Dennis came to see me at work like they normally do, but this time they were meeting Dennis' mom there which was pretty awkward too. I didn't know what to do because I was still supposed to be working, and I didn't know what to say to anybody, so I just kept doing my usual prepping for closing routine. I noticed how much his mom seemed to like Natasha, and I couldn't help but think how Natasha is the type of girl that can meet a guy's family and they are going to love her. I, on the other hand, am not that type of girl. I'm not the type of girl a guy brings home to meet his family. I just don't have all those fantastic girlfriend qualities that so many girls seem to have. I'm just kind of there. I don't know how to be that dream girl for someone. It's weird because I haven't thought about this kind of thing for a long time, but now I can't stop thinking about it. It's lame I know, but I can't help but wonder if anyone ever is actually going to love me. I mean I know I have my family, but they are terrible at acting like a family, and I don't think I'll ever have any other family which is what terrifies me. 

Group Chat

Last day of February! I actually don't know why that is exciting other than that means it's only almost Spring Break which would be more exciting if I didn't have to go home. Although the upside is I get to see BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN over break!!! I cannot wait for that!
Lately, my wrist is absolutely killing, so I bought a wrist splint. I wear it at night and during the day when I'm on the computer, but I think I need to get some sort of tape to use while playing violin because that's when it hurts the most. I think I'll look for some KT tape when I go run some errands today.
I have an orchestra concert this week. I'm pretty nervous for it although I say that before every concert it seems like. I just hope I can play without wanting to cry that seems to be common occurrence for me. Musician pain is kind of the worse thing in the world due to the uncomfortable positions we put ourselves in for extended periods of time. It sucks.
My friends Natasha, Dennis, Becky and I all have a group chat on Facebook that we use to talk to each other pretty much all day. It's a lot of fun actually. We also have another that has Natasha's boyfriend as well because he really wanted to be part of a group chat.
My latest music obsession is Lucy Dacus. Her debut album, No Burden is a masterpiece. I absolutely love it! Her voice is incredible, her lyrics cause you to do some soul searching, and her songs all together are beautiful. Plus she's just kind of an adorable human. I watched a live performance of her it was pretty funny. She's probably my new favorite person. I think if we knew each other we'd be best friends. 

Lost in the Woods

I had a pretty great weekend. Friday night I saw Palehound live. It was really awesome. There were two local bands before Palehound. I liked the band, Great Grandpa, but not the other band. It was a small venue, but it was a great night of music. Palehound was obviously my favorite band of the night, but it was really cool to hear a local band that I had never head of before. I always love discovering new music that I like. Natasha had a good time, but I'm not sure Dennis did, only because it wasn't really his kind of music. Saturday, we had EMP in our dorm. It was pretty cool, I guess. I don't really get why everyone gets so hyped about it. Today, I had a very interesting day indeed. Natasha and I had to be tied together for eight hours straight for an assignment in one of her classes. She has to write an essay about the nonverbal communication that took place between us that was a sign of tension. We didn't really get that annoyed with each other though, so I don't know what she's going to write about.
Since we're supposed to do something out in public while being tied together we decided to go to Discovery Park. We had to take the bus though because we don't have a car. Dennis decided to come with us too. We get on the first bus to transfer to the next bus. The problem we had was we didn't cross the street before getting on our next bus, so we ended up going in the wrong direction. We went pretty far before I realized it, so we get off at some random stop to go the other direction. We get off at this pretty sketchy stop that had a lot of homeless and crazy people. There was a guy with blood on his shirt, and another guy had no shirt on under his coat. This other guy was just babbling crazy stuff about who knows what. The three of us were pretty scared. Towards the end a security guard showed up, so I was less nervous then. Also the guy with the bloody shirt had left by that time. Finally, our bus arrives, and it's another 20 minutes to the park. We get to the park and walk all the way to the water, but it's dark by the time we start walking back. So we're just walking through this random park in the dark for a couple of miles before we finally find the bus stop to get back. All in all, I'm pretty glad to be alive after our weird adventure today. 

A Thai Valentine's Day

Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I've had at work. I was still pretty mad about it when I got off work until I started watching New Moon and making fun of it with a couple of my friends. One of the girl's who works at Sandella's and lives on my floor was asking people to cover her shift on Saturday, and since nobody answered her besides me, I ended up working her shift for her as well as mine. I didn't mind working her shift, it was simple, easy, like Sandella's normally is, but later that day during my shift, the other person who's supposed to show up, never did. I called my manager after an hour of him not showing up, my manager didn't answer, and called me back that night. Normally, I wouldn't have minded so much because Saturdays are usually completely dead, but not last night. People kept coming one after another until about 7:40, and we close at 8:00, so I didn't get to start closing up until 7:45ish. When there are two people, we usually start doing stuff for closing around 7:00 because there is so little to do. I ended up skipping a few things for closing, so I could get out of there by 8:30. My guess is the guy who's supposed to work that shift probably called in sick, and no one told me because communication there sucks so much for weekend people. I can't wait until I can quit at the end of the quarter. 

On a brighter note, I went out for Thai food today with my friends for Valentine's Day. It was Natasha, Dennis, Brandon, and me all together again. I'm pretty sure most people probably think we're on a double date when the four of us are together, but then again probably not. We don't act like couples at all, so that helps. Anyways, Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Independent Music

This week has gone by super fast. Honestly, I think my life is going by super fast. It's weird really, I remember being about six or seven years old and thinking I couldn't wait to get older. I still sometimes think that. I think about how awesome it would be to be middle aged. Your kids are pretty grown up by that time, so you basically can do whatever you want. I mean at least if you're my dad you can do whatever you want. He owns his company so he doesn't have a boss. I'm out of the house. He literally doesn't have to answer to anyone, and something about that seems so freeing. Now I think where my deep rooted independence comes from. 

I got my first experience with getting the chance to learn some stuff about how the music tech department works here. It was pretty cool. I actually got to do a couple of things, nothing super exciting but still it was fun. I got to change the slides so the audience could sing along. I also got to set up and take the cameras. Oh and this pretty attractive guy had to explain things to me that was pretty cool because I'm so socially awkward I rarely talk to new people unless I'm forced to. Another cute guy was wearing an Avett Brothers t-shirt yesterday which completely made my day. 

Today, I woke up to The Lumineers' countdown being over, so I got to hear their new song again this morning. I figured out last night that Apple Music already had their single available, so I got to listen to it last night. WOOHOO!!! I was actually really happy with Ophelia. It's a really good song, and I can't wait until April 8th!!!