Graduation Day

Guess what? I finally graduated. "High school, how'd you do it?" The real question is how'd I manage not to majorly injure someone in the four years I was crowded in with a too small school for the amount of people that were in it. The building reached its maximum capacity every year. I don't feel any different just relieved that it's finally over. My mom did end up coming to the ceremony I was slightly surprised she did. She'd told me a few months back she might not come, so I wasn't entirely sure what to expect. I didn't go on my class trip which is perfectly fine with me I didn't really want to be stuck with those people for over 12 hours that's so extremely suffocating to me that I think I would have gone insane. Especially since they were going somewhere that was extremely boring. The only thing to do was swim, and I have too many self esteem issues to be seen in a swim suit in front of those people.
I did wind up with a total of about $385 from various people in the community and my family. I also received a set of luggage as well as a coffeemaker with coffee. I did better than I was expecting in the gift department of graduation. I haven't gotten my pillowcases from my aunt, but she'll probably give them to me during family rafting weekend. I know she's made them because she asked me what my school colors were, and everyone else has gotten the same thing from her. It will be nice to not have to wash my pillowcases that often. Plus she always gets cool fabric that has to do with your interests. They are always very thoughtful. So now the only things I'm going to need are a rain jacket, sheets, bedding, and towels. Also don't forget I need to somehow magically cover the rest of my tuition for the next four years. 

Detonator Yellow

TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL!!!!!!!!! I NEVER EVER HAVE TO GO BACK, except for graduation. The day I get to leave this town is the closest it's ever been, and I cannot wait! Of course, I will still return home during breaks and such, but I will not have to live here full time ever again. I am no longer a high school student. This is what I have been waiting for, since I was about 8 years old. Now the only thing I have to wait for today is for my dad to get home, so we can go eat. I'm so hungry right now, and I am not entirely sure why since I had donuts during school today, but I guess that was four hours ago.
My dad bought a new car over the weekend to replace the Xterra that he gave away because of the whole tires not staying on the car. The guy he gave it to didn't seem to mind that there has been two incidents where the tires have not stayed on the car like a normal operating vehicle. He said he just wanted something to drive to the grocery store, so it wouldn't be a complete disaster if the tire falls off as he's going 25 miles an hour. My dad ended up buying a Jeep Wrangler this time. The color of the new vehicle is called, "Detonator Yellow." The other night my dad was talking about the color of the car and ended up saying something about Jesus along the lines of, "Jesus has blue eyes and six pack abs." I said," And 'Detonator Yellow' hair," because my dad always says that the baby Jesus had blue eyes and blonde hair due to the line in the movie, "Talladega Nights."

Late Night Accident

I had an interesting night, last night. It started out with driving to the town where my dad works, and eating sushi with him, Sharron, and her daughter. We needed to waste some time before the concert we were going to an hour away. We were going to see Shakey Graves and The Barr Brothers at 9:00. We arrived a little bit early. The Barr Brothers were pretty awesome. I really liked the main guy's guitar playing. He's pretty incredible, especially with all the cool sound effects he does. I also really liked Shakey Graves' performance, but unfortunately we had to leave early. I was basically the only one able to stay up that late. Well, my dad I think would have been fine staying for the whole thing. Shakey Graves is also very amazing at playing the guitar, and his voice is spectacular. Before Shakey Graves came on my dad said, "'I have seen the future of Rock N Roll.' Bruce is going to come out in the middle of the performance, and pass the torch." With Bruce Springsteen growing older someone is going to have to take his place.
Anyways, after the concert my dad dropped us all off at his office, where Sharron, her daughter, and I had our cars parked. I was on my way home when the car started to wobble a little, so I slowed down and it stopped. I was only going 70 MPH when the wobbling started, and it stopped when I got down to 60. After it stopped I went at a steady 65. A few minutes went by, and all of a sudden the front left tire of my car fell off. I managed to remain surprisingly calm until after I got the car off the road and stopped. When I had gotten off the road I wasn't sure the car was going to stop, but it finally did. I immediately put my hazards on and the E-brake. I called my dad to tell him what happened. He asked me where I was, and I wasn't entirely sure because it was dark out. He asked me if I knew what happened to the tire, I didn't know that either. I honestly don't know how I kept my voice to keep steady because I almost started crying I'm not sure why. My hands were shaking pretty bad too. My dad finally came and picked me up. We got home around 2:00 in the morning. I couldn't fall asleep until at least 3:00 maybe later.

Last Lesson

Today was kind of a sad day. It was also miserably hot. I had my last violin lesson with the teacher I've had since I started playing the violin. I also had my last violin recital here. I doubt that I will play a solo on violin again, but I will play in the orchestra at my college when I go there. I gave my teacher a present today. It was a little silver violin pin. I also gave her card telling her how much I appreciate everything she has taught me as well as all the support she's given me. She asked me to tell her when my college concerts are, so she can come to them. She's moving over the summer, and she will actually be very close to where I will be. I'm excited to be going to college, but I'm sad that I won't have the same teacher. I'm going to miss everyone I have played with over the years. I wish they all could come with me to college, but that would be kind of weird having an entourage of middle-age and older adults following me around everywhere I go. Although at the same time it would be kind of interesting.
Today was also my dad's birthday. I sent him a picture of my dogs with a sign that said happy birthday on it. My birthday present to him was a poster that said, "Give a man and you feed him for a day. Don't give a man a fish and feed yourself. He's a grown man. Fishing's not that hard." It's something Ron Swanson says in Parks and Rec. I thought it would be good to put in his office since he sells fishing flies and doesn't have anything on his walls.

Awards for All

We had the Scholarship Awards Night last night at our school. The whole thing was miserably long and terribly boring for the majority of us. I basically sat there and listened to the same four names get repeated over and over and over again. It was slightly annoying. Especially the ones who would say things like, "I've been waiting to get this scholarship to so-so for years now," or, "This award is for a senior who blah blah blah and it helps that they're a great babysitter." The whole thing made me sick to my stomach. It was amazing I even got one scholarship considering that my parents aren't active members of the community, and I haven't lived here my whole life like everyone else has. Also I don't play any sports, but apparently if you play baseball and football people want to give you tons of money, and if you're going to school in the same state as my high school which I'm not. It didn't even help that I'm part of the arts because of course this one guy in my class received all of those because he's going to the Boston Conservatory and everyone in my town is convinced he's going to be on Broadway someday. He's also very good at ass kissing which is not something I've ever been able to do because I have some dignity.
I did get a scholarship that I wasn't even sure if I applied for. I was zoning off when the guy was talking about the scholarship because I was positive I didn't get it, and all of sudden I hear him say my name, and it took me a second to realize that it was me he was talking about. I was finally able to join the other students up on stage even though over half of them were already up there. My heart was pounding so hard that I barely said thank you above a whisper. The other scholarship I received I thought I would get because I did know the person that gives it out every year. It's the scholarship my middle school band teacher gives, and since I still see him quite regularly and have kept on good terms with him I thought I had a really good chance at getting it. I was so happy when they announced my name for that one because it actually meant something to me to get it.

Bible of Violin

I woke up at 5:30 this morning that was not pleasant for me. Then I went to a very much waste of time,  Jazz Band rehearsal. There were only seven of us, and my band teacher tried to make me improv today, but there was no way in hell that I was going to randomly start improving after waking up an hour and a half earlier than I usually do. Also he has never tried to make me do improv before. I did however have a very pleasant violin lesson today with my teacher. She bought me Kreutzer as a graduation present. She is the sweetest woman ever. She told me Kreutzer is the bible of violin. She was a judge assistant to the first chairman of the Oregon Symphony when she was in college, and he had told she had to get Kreutzer because it's the bible of violin. I am so sad that last week is going to be my last lesson with her. I will miss her very much. She has been one of the best role models in my life, and I think my life would be very, very different without her.

Prom Night

I went to prom last night. Surprisingly, it was actually kind of fun. I went with my friends, so my "date" was a girl, but that was fine with me. Last time I went to a dance I went with my boyfriend and his friends, that was probably the most awkward night of my entire life. This time I felt ten times less awkward. I also looked nicer than last time because I had a better dress. We actually stayed for almost the whole thing, and then went back to my friend's house and watched Maleficent.
Today, I'm going to my grandma's house for Mother's Day. My aunt and her son will be there so will my older brother Josh. Brandon has to work today, so he doesn't get to go. I bought my mom a card and a candle and left it on her doorstep. I don't plan on her seeing her today partly because she's busy with all the First Communion crap today. She'll be at Mass and then off to one of her second grader's parties just like every other year. The other reason I'm not going to see her is I just don't really want to. She texted me at midnight Friday night, technically Saturday morning, and asked me if I was going to prom. Of all the times to ask me if I was going she picked midnight the night before prom. She could've asked me long before then, and actually made an attempt to be there to help me get ready or something. Instead I had to get ready at my friend's house with her mom and none of my parents which is okay I guess. It was just a little uncomfortable because they were getting out jewelry and stuff for me to put on, and my friend says to me, "It's okay. I know you don't have a mom to do this stuff with." I don't really know why she said that when I do have a mom, just not a mom who is very active in my life.