Late Night Accident

I had an interesting night, last night. It started out with driving to the town where my dad works, and eating sushi with him, Sharron, and her daughter. We needed to waste some time before the concert we were going to an hour away. We were going to see Shakey Graves and The Barr Brothers at 9:00. We arrived a little bit early. The Barr Brothers were pretty awesome. I really liked the main guy's guitar playing. He's pretty incredible, especially with all the cool sound effects he does. I also really liked Shakey Graves' performance, but unfortunately we had to leave early. I was basically the only one able to stay up that late. Well, my dad I think would have been fine staying for the whole thing. Shakey Graves is also very amazing at playing the guitar, and his voice is spectacular. Before Shakey Graves came on my dad said, "'I have seen the future of Rock N Roll.' Bruce is going to come out in the middle of the performance, and pass the torch." With Bruce Springsteen growing older someone is going to have to take his place.
Anyways, after the concert my dad dropped us all off at his office, where Sharron, her daughter, and I had our cars parked. I was on my way home when the car started to wobble a little, so I slowed down and it stopped. I was only going 70 MPH when the wobbling started, and it stopped when I got down to 60. After it stopped I went at a steady 65. A few minutes went by, and all of a sudden the front left tire of my car fell off. I managed to remain surprisingly calm until after I got the car off the road and stopped. When I had gotten off the road I wasn't sure the car was going to stop, but it finally did. I immediately put my hazards on and the E-brake. I called my dad to tell him what happened. He asked me where I was, and I wasn't entirely sure because it was dark out. He asked me if I knew what happened to the tire, I didn't know that either. I honestly don't know how I kept my voice to keep steady because I almost started crying I'm not sure why. My hands were shaking pretty bad too. My dad finally came and picked me up. We got home around 2:00 in the morning. I couldn't fall asleep until at least 3:00 maybe later.

Last Lesson

Today was kind of a sad day. It was also miserably hot. I had my last violin lesson with the teacher I've had since I started playing the violin. I also had my last violin recital here. I doubt that I will play a solo on violin again, but I will play in the orchestra at my college when I go there. I gave my teacher a present today. It was a little silver violin pin. I also gave her card telling her how much I appreciate everything she has taught me as well as all the support she's given me. She asked me to tell her when my college concerts are, so she can come to them. She's moving over the summer, and she will actually be very close to where I will be. I'm excited to be going to college, but I'm sad that I won't have the same teacher. I'm going to miss everyone I have played with over the years. I wish they all could come with me to college, but that would be kind of weird having an entourage of middle-age and older adults following me around everywhere I go. Although at the same time it would be kind of interesting.
Today was also my dad's birthday. I sent him a picture of my dogs with a sign that said happy birthday on it. My birthday present to him was a poster that said, "Give a man and you feed him for a day. Don't give a man a fish and feed yourself. He's a grown man. Fishing's not that hard." It's something Ron Swanson says in Parks and Rec. I thought it would be good to put in his office since he sells fishing flies and doesn't have anything on his walls.

Awards for All

We had the Scholarship Awards Night last night at our school. The whole thing was miserably long and terribly boring for the majority of us. I basically sat there and listened to the same four names get repeated over and over and over again. It was slightly annoying. Especially the ones who would say things like, "I've been waiting to get this scholarship to so-so for years now," or, "This award is for a senior who blah blah blah and it helps that they're a great babysitter." The whole thing made me sick to my stomach. It was amazing I even got one scholarship considering that my parents aren't active members of the community, and I haven't lived here my whole life like everyone else has. Also I don't play any sports, but apparently if you play baseball and football people want to give you tons of money, and if you're going to school in the same state as my high school which I'm not. It didn't even help that I'm part of the arts because of course this one guy in my class received all of those because he's going to the Boston Conservatory and everyone in my town is convinced he's going to be on Broadway someday. He's also very good at ass kissing which is not something I've ever been able to do because I have some dignity.
I did get a scholarship that I wasn't even sure if I applied for. I was zoning off when the guy was talking about the scholarship because I was positive I didn't get it, and all of sudden I hear him say my name, and it took me a second to realize that it was me he was talking about. I was finally able to join the other students up on stage even though over half of them were already up there. My heart was pounding so hard that I barely said thank you above a whisper. The other scholarship I received I thought I would get because I did know the person that gives it out every year. It's the scholarship my middle school band teacher gives, and since I still see him quite regularly and have kept on good terms with him I thought I had a really good chance at getting it. I was so happy when they announced my name for that one because it actually meant something to me to get it.

Bible of Violin

I woke up at 5:30 this morning that was not pleasant for me. Then I went to a very much waste of time,  Jazz Band rehearsal. There were only seven of us, and my band teacher tried to make me improv today, but there was no way in hell that I was going to randomly start improving after waking up an hour and a half earlier than I usually do. Also he has never tried to make me do improv before. I did however have a very pleasant violin lesson today with my teacher. She bought me Kreutzer as a graduation present. She is the sweetest woman ever. She told me Kreutzer is the bible of violin. She was a judge assistant to the first chairman of the Oregon Symphony when she was in college, and he had told she had to get Kreutzer because it's the bible of violin. I am so sad that last week is going to be my last lesson with her. I will miss her very much. She has been one of the best role models in my life, and I think my life would be very, very different without her.

Prom Night

I went to prom last night. Surprisingly, it was actually kind of fun. I went with my friends, so my "date" was a girl, but that was fine with me. Last time I went to a dance I went with my boyfriend and his friends, that was probably the most awkward night of my entire life. This time I felt ten times less awkward. I also looked nicer than last time because I had a better dress. We actually stayed for almost the whole thing, and then went back to my friend's house and watched Maleficent.
Today, I'm going to my grandma's house for Mother's Day. My aunt and her son will be there so will my older brother Josh. Brandon has to work today, so he doesn't get to go. I bought my mom a card and a candle and left it on her doorstep. I don't plan on her seeing her today partly because she's busy with all the First Communion crap today. She'll be at Mass and then off to one of her second grader's parties just like every other year. The other reason I'm not going to see her is I just don't really want to. She texted me at midnight Friday night, technically Saturday morning, and asked me if I was going to prom. Of all the times to ask me if I was going she picked midnight the night before prom. She could've asked me long before then, and actually made an attempt to be there to help me get ready or something. Instead I had to get ready at my friend's house with her mom and none of my parents which is okay I guess. It was just a little uncomfortable because they were getting out jewelry and stuff for me to put on, and my friend says to me, "It's okay. I know you don't have a mom to do this stuff with." I don't really know why she said that when I do have a mom, just not a mom who is very active in my life.

iWorld

My dad came home today and said, "Are you sure you're going to graduate?" I said yes with a puzzled look because I wasn't entirely sure what he was getting at with this question. I thought it might have to do with skipping school today, but I don't really have any classes to go to on Friday anymore since I took my AP exam. He asked this same question multiple times until finally he entered the house with a rectangular cardboard box. My new laptop had already come, and I was able to open it before I graduated. It's a Macbook Pro, so I'll be able to fit in with all the other college kids in Seattle. I have a complete iWorld now. I have an iPhone, iPad, iPod touch, and a Macbook. I'm such a cool kid. Not. I wish having Apple products alone was enough to make me cool, but alas in this world it requires much more than that. Oh well, I'll keep on being a looooooser. I've come to terms with it by now. Besides I'm not a loser just socially awkward.

Can't Wait for Summer

I just realized today it's been almost a month since I've been on here. So much crap has been happening: my dog almost died of cancer, I had my last concert for Gorge Strings and Sinfonietta, took an AP Calculus test this morning, my mom had a job interview I don't know what the outcome of it was, took a music theory proficiency exam for college( I needed a 90% got a 93% and I've never taken a music theory class in my life), learned about my dad's plans for his future record label (apparently he's going to make super group concert comprised of Shakey Graves, Benjamin Booker, and Courtney Barnett), wrote some songs, and wrote two essays, one about a monument honoring Bruce Springsteen and one about I Believe people talk too much. There was possibly a few things I missed out on, but I'm so unbelievably tired right now I can't remember. Oh yeah I also finished my stupid senior binder, that entire thing was pointless because I already know what I'm going to do for the next four years, sort of. I still don't know if I have gotten any local scholarships, but I was invited to some banquet for being in the top 10% in my class, I'm not sure how I'm still in the top 10%, but that's cool.
My dog was sick for a couple days, and the vet thought he might have cancer, but he only had pneumonia. Now he's hopping around on three legs for some odd reason. I have no idea why because his leg doesn't seem to hurt him.
At my last Sinfonietta, they honored my violin teacher because it was her last concert too. She then proceeded to thank people, and said that she had to recognize someone else who was leaving this year too which happened to be me. She made me stand up in front of all those people and told them that I was going off to college to study music. I was super embarrassed, and afterward my dad said, "I've never seen anyone look so uncomfortable in my life." I guess I should get used to being on stage since that is what I want to do for my career. I really wish that I had less social anxiety.